guys i have a confession!!! i have been thinking ''life aint worth livin if i cant live it happily''!! i have been thinking that i should commit suicide!!! i have been thinking that i am not wanted and i am serious thinking bout suicide!! guys i really need ur help!!!!

P.S. loonay is my nickname

I've been having a lot of family trouble.Alot of the adults in my life that i always thought would b there for me ,left when i was younger. Now i just dont now if my mom loves me or if she's just sayin that like the other people in my family that left. Does she realy love me an care for me? Why does she yell at me alot(single mom with 3 kids)? Why did everyone leave me?? These are questions i ask myself everyday but i have trouble finding the answers or trusting in God. If he loves me why did he take those people away from me?? I just dont know what to do. I have talked with some older girls in my youth group(im 13) and they have helped but only a little.Some suggested counsiling but im scared and if i told my mom she would ask why and i dont think i can explain it to her. Also i havemt seen my mad in about 4 or 5 years and i miss him but at the same time im so mad at him i dont know if i could stand seeing him. I just feel so clueless. o and one of my bff's is a christian but shes emo and i get realy worried because if she tells me or not i know shes been cutting herself an that realy freaks me out.

Please pray that I can over come my fears and be a better person inside and out.

dear shelby it's emily again talk to your mom... please. what started these problems, anything. do not do ANYTHING that you might regret. but listen im not judgeing you im only trying to help. i could hardly image all of this emotional turmoll for anybody. my letters to u might not be half as other people but they still (i hope) are helpful. listen i have had to go to counseling before it is not scarey. just say to your mom" i need to go to counseling) she should listen. and if she asks why tell her why dont geep out the part about that u dont think she loves u. and dont keep anything that worries u at counseling a secret. PLEASE DONT DO ANYTHING WILD (SERIESLY) ps God luvs ya bye

I'm having problems regarding with my studies. Please pray for me to pass my exams and have no grade lower than 87. Please pray for me to have strength to overcome my problems, life's disappointment and failures...

hey shelby... lol thats my bffs name
i totally understand where youre coming from because that stuff that youre describing i went thru last year and some this year. i got really really depressed last year and this year because we had a huge move and i got depressed and some other major things were going on (i had some mental stuff going on that was making me go whacko) and so i felt really hopeless and helpless and thought about killing myself and cutting became a way out. it helped for a while but in the end it left me feeling soooo guilty and empty and like "how could God love me after all this stuff i've done???" and so i guess what im telling you this for is to tell you that no matter how pent up inside you feel, cutting and doing things with guys and stuff will only fill you for a little while and after that... youre worse off than you were before and then theres even more guilt and then you feel like you really really really cant tell your mom and youre so pent up inside that you think you'll explode. i know because im in a christian home too and thats how i felt and still feel sometimes. but God is there for you and i know that you're probably just like "yeah right... that's just another Christian pat answer..." but its true and i never realized that those Christian pat answers are used so much because theyre true... so suicide, cutting, guys, drugs, and drinking and whatever else you were referring to in your post when you said you were going to do "something"... THAT IS NOT THE ANSWER!!!! please take it from someone who knows. honey, i've been there and done that... and i swear Jesus is the only way!!!!!!! if you need to talk more please post more on here because i dont think we're allowed to post email addresses on here... otherwise i would put my email address on here...
btw i totally understand about the "no friends" thing... i've pretty much been without friends for about a year... we're your friends on here though and try to find someone who understands and who you can talk to in your church, school, etc. i found that usually what i need is to have someone who will listen, love me no matter what i tell them, and who can understand because they've "been there, done that"... idk if this has made any sense at all but hope its helped...
your sister in Christ...

to shelb=help my name is Emily and i am 12. talk to your school counseler or your favorite teacher or your pastor or your sunday school teacher... just talk to someone you know. Also if you need a friend you can email me(we are close in age) Just what ever you do remeber God loves u and thinks your beautiful plus if you need a shoulder to cry on email me. if you want my email address just let me know. God luvs ya ,bye

Hello. I'm new here but I realy want to ask you...
We've all gone through this phase in life, sometimes more often than others. But haven't you ever asked yourself, "Why am I on this earth"? What am I here for? Exactly just what is your purpose in life?
P.S. Sorry If wrong section!

Dear Shelby,

I was checking out this site for my 10 year old daughter and I happen upon your pray. As a mother of almost 11 year old I know that your life can be rough. But I also know that you need to go to your mom. As a mom there is nothing I won't do to make my daughters life better and I wouldn't want her hurting like you are right now. As one mother to a daughter of christ I love you and I pray for God's arms and your Mom's arms to be around you to love you and comfort you. God loves you Shelby that is why he gave you that mommy let her help you....

Mother in christ
Laura

Me and my mom have been having some hard times lately. I had a good talk with her today. I need some help to get myself strait and be the best I can be and Trust God to help me with every promblem I have.

Shelby,
You and I are a lot alike. I don't know all the background of your situation and the reverse for you, but by what I know you and I went through the same thing. First, JESUS LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO!!!! He will always be there for you when you want to go back to Him. Meaning, if you have fallen away from Him and His guidence for your life then He will be there to catch you when you want to come running back in His arms and His embrace. And even though His embrace is not a physical thing that we feel, He is the one who will be there for you when the hurt starts to set it rather than the boy that will leave you once one little thing goes wrong.
Secondly, it breaks my heart that you at only ELEVEN want/need to find exceptance in some boy. I know that the media is telling girls at younger and younger ages that they need a boy in their life in order to be satisfied, but that is just NOT true at all. And you can trust me on that one, I am almost 18 years old and I have NEVER had a boyfriend!!! And to be honest with you, at times yes I have wanted that prince in shinning armor to come and tell me how beautiful I am or that he would be nothing without me, but looking back on those times I don't know what I was thinking. Not that I am saying a boyfriend is a bad thing, but to become completely comsumed in that kind of relationship will only make you more weak in your walk with Christ. But back to what I was saying, the times when I felt that I just had to have a boyfriend where the times that I was FAR away from Christ and the relationship we had. I was so angry at Him for the things that had happened in my life, that I didn't care what I knew was right and wrong, I just wanted to do what I wanted. So I'm saying to you as a sister in Christ, that you might want to find something else that is a healthy "addiction" for lack of a better word, to fill the emptiness you have.
TALK TO YOUR MOM!!! She will not love you any less for telling her what you are going through. I was afraid to talk to my mom about the feelings I had and how depressed I had become because I was afraid just like you that she might love me less or think that I was a bad person for having these thoughts. But I was completely wrong. It had her feel sad at first that one she hadn't noticed it, because again like you I was good at hiding it, and secondly she was sad because I felt like that. She wanted to just love on me and tell me how much I meant to her. If you go to her openly, she will probably give you better advice than anything you will be able to recieve on this web site, because she knows you and we don't. And talking to her may also feel the void that you have for LOVE in your life. You may not feel loved because it seems that you have cut yourself out of being loved by the people around you. Just because you are afraid of telling someone how you feel doesn't mean they can automatically know how you feel and try to fix it for you. Don't do anything that you might regret later, because in the end all that matters is your relationship with Christ. You can't take the things of the world with you because those things only cause pain and heart ache. Trust in the one who loves you more than you will ever know! When I finally got things out in the open and accepted that I wanted to change the way my life was going. I got back on track with the Lord and asked Him to forgive me for "leaving" Him for a short time and asked that He would give me strenght to get through what was going on in my life... and guess what a year later I am closer to Him than I ever have been! So get things right with the Lord and the rest of your problems will fall right where they are suppost too.
I really hope that what I said helped you. If you want to talk more just post on here again, and maybe I can give you my email address and we talk more privately. I am always here to talk, because I know that talking to someone who doesn't even know you might be easier than talking to your own mom. I totally get that! I hope that you continue to understand how much Christ loves you!

In His LOVE,
Sam

Thank you laurabeth and amber for the messages ya'll have posted.

I thank ya'll that ya'll care about me enough to spend time writing stuff on this website thank you very much.

I do know that God loves me but right now at this time i mean i know He died for me and all i just cant get it through my head to love and worship Him and i don't know why.

But any ways thank ya'll for your prayers cause i realy do need them, cause i am usally the one that other people come to so they can cry on my shoulder cause i dont like to be weak (emotionaly) cause i want to be the post that every1 can lean on.

I wish i could get to know ya'll in person ya'll could be good friends for me (cause i don't have any friends).

Thank you again i hope i do see some hope in the time a head cause it is realy hard to find hope right now.

I still have all the problems from the last letter, just no1 knows cause i keep them inside of me.

I go to church but i just am brought up in a Godly home, just i have problems that i can't find the answers to.

Plz post another one of your thought for me cause i truley need to know that some people care for me.

Hey, I'm really scared for my sister she doing stuff with this boy that she shouldn't be doing. I want to help her but I can't. I love her so much, but she makes me so mad. Please pray for her and my family. Thank you!

Dear Shelby,
I am praying for you. don't be afraid to talk to your mom. she will always love you. i am praying for you and i will tell all my friends to pray for you too! always remember that even if you don't want to talk to anyone else, God will always listen! no matter what! he will always love you no matter what you do. I will be praying that you make the right choices with this boy because i have met someone that is a grown-up now and she made a bad choice and now she really regrets her decision. I will be praying that you make the right decision. Don't ever forget that Jesus loves you! He proved it when He died on the cross for you! 1 John 3:16 says "this is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ layed down His life for us," Jesus really does love you and will ALWAYS LISTEN TO YOU! Just go to God when you are sad and it will make you feel better, i know because when i get sad and go to God it always makes me feel better.
JESUS LOVES YOU,
LauraBeth

Hey my friend is going kinda in the wrong direction. shes emo which is kinda like gothic except shes a christian. she litsens to music by people who are... well lets just say some of them are not very nice and are DEFINETLY not saved. So pray for my friend and me cuz i am trying to convince her to praise god in every thing she does (including music!!).

I am having problems with growing up and I am really sensitive. I am having a hard time controlling my feelings and just want you guys to pray for me. Any one else too if you see this please pray for me. Thanks a ton!!!

Please Pray for a 8 year old at my church. he has a form of cancer and they just found another tumor. The sparkle in his eye is gone and so is his adorable hair. Please Pray that He can live his life

-Sophie

Okay well, my family has been struggeling alot lately. My sister has had 3 staff infections, They won't go away. And my aunt had twins 6 months ago and recently her husband just kinda left, so I think she needs some prayer. Also I am very happy all my friends now know Jesus ten times better and are trying to teach our school about God. : ) : O

Hey i just want you guys to pray for me, im really wanting to get closer to God, i want Him to be my best friend, the one i go to for everything, not just someone i believe in, but someone i KNOW.im just struggling to get to that point, but i cant wait till i do! :) ill be really trying to

Please pray for my pop( grandpa ) and the rest of my family because the 1 year anniversery of my grams ( grandma) passing.

Thank you and i will pray for all of you as well

ok one of my best friends dad has cancer. they say that he only has a month and a half to live. I really need lots of prayers for her dad and her family. I believe that God can do anything as long as we have faith in him. I just want to show my friend that God can do anything. Even if the doctors say he only has a month God says diffrent. She has just recently gotten saved and i think that this will be a great thing to increse the faith in God. She can learn that no matter what God is always there for us.

Thanks for all the prayers,
Kiona

I need people to pray for me. I am a seventh grader and I moved a year ago. Since I move di have witnissed to a lot of people and things. There are people around that are not christians that i dont even know about and now they are. So it pretty good. But, my two "friends" are crazy. one was never my friend because of the choices i knew she made. well my friend Emi has been hanging out with this girl and she is doing CRAZY things she wasnt thinking of. i dont know what to do and they really frustrate me hanving no problem with this and now telling me they did NOT do it! it doesnt add up

Hello! I'm Crystal. I am almost 19. :)
virtuousreality.com - nice name for this site! ;)
It is so interestingly here, especially in this category.
I was surfed about 2 hours before found this forum. I think i'll be here for a long time! :-*

I'll be praying for u girls!

Shanice

Ok so I just found out that one of my friends used to cut herself. She said she stopped though. But now she has all these cuts on her arm she says she fell down but I don't believe her. shes been really depressed lately so i think shes cutting herself again.

Another of my friends recently o.d. on sleeping pills and went to the emergency room she was kind of depressed for a while but i dont know about now she seems happy but i cant tell

Also my time with God isn't very much and my walk with Him isn't very strong. i know i need to be stronger in my relationship with Him but i can't ever seem to find time.

So I just really need people praying for mr right now. Thanks.

DJ

Can ya'll pray for me. Since the begining of the school year started i have lost my best friend (who i've been best friends with since kindergarden) and my volleyball team has started to blame ME for losing our games even though I don't play even half as much as everyone else & my dad has been emabarasing me by yelling at me at the football games in front of my friends for no good reason. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! The only way i've been able to make it through is with Jesus Christ. I just need prayer for Jesus to help me stay faithful through all the bad stuff. Thanx.

to shelby.
me and u r more alike than u could ever image. i went and still kinda am in the same situation. trust me it gets better. dont loose faith and hope. dont loose ur path with god. he will help u through a lot. i know going to ur mom might seem hard. i thought it was too. like she wouldnt care,listen,love u anymore. dont believe that. its not true. i now tell my mom everything and u know what she still loves me. u need anything let me know. im here for u. im on almost everyday. i will listen. im really good at that. if u wanna talk thro ugh email just let me know i will give u my email address. i willpray for u.
*ur loving friend

I've been struggling, trying to figure out what God wants to do with my life.
I've had a headache (allergy-ish) since last monday and it has put me in a kind of fog all the time. I've had mulitple friends ask me if i was ok, or what's wrong? (my favorite was by best friend asking me where the happy becca went)
And truly, I have no idea what's wrong. I've never had allergies. I've only felt like this once before in April of this year, but it was during a really stressful two weeks- so i wrote it off as stress induced. However, now I feel awful. But it comes and goes, there are definite spikes and lulls of pain.
So basically...... I don't know what to ask for prayer for. I just feel awful, and I don't understand what purpose this could possibly serve, but God's still not taking the pain away. I'm a sophomore in high school, I have great friends of alot of ages who love me, and I love them dearly, I have an amazing christian family - but there is no joy in my life. I don't understand!!!
I don't know what you can do, or what you could pray for, but please - just pray for me.

Thank you so much

okay i am sorry if i right on this i just don't have any1 to talk to so sorry if it bugs ya'll 8(. okay just a couple minutes ago i realized my name can spell help SHELBY okay take the s and y out and the bottom loop of the B and it spells SHELBY=HELP!!! i realy cry alot and i am scared i am planing on doing sertain bad stuff that wrong now but not later so i have a problem with that. my friend helps me but not the right kind of help. i've tryied to plan out how to turn around my life after... cause i know its going to happen one way or another. Cause i feel as if a guy is the only one to help me and love me the correct way that i want my friend has tried to talk me out of it but it didnt work so well. i know thats one of my problems but thats only a problem cause theres deperprobelms i would rather not talk about on here. but i try to talk to my mom but then i get scared she wont love me any more. i need help but i dont know the problem yet so what would that do for me. in the mean time i am causing more troulbe in my life and thinking about things that wont help me. i dont know what to do. from january 2008 problems (not mager) had started happing. i am raised in a christin home and my friends and family love me but thats not the problem. i feel woried,afraid,terrified,alone,empty,and unloved idk why though cause i am loved so i will just have to work it out by myself o and i am only eleven so theres more problems to come. every thing is making it worse. my tumy hurts ALL the time. i cry alot (quitely so no body hears me). i've thought about runing away and other things so yes and i am only eleven. i HATE being alone cause then i can just cry (i mean its what i want but not realy). i mean the hardest thing would be i cry and you whait to be held in someones arms but no1 comes so you just sit there in a pudle of tears soking wet. i try not to be rebullious but its so hard not to. i've cause enough problems so my mom doesnt want me to get older cause that gives me more problems to cause (great). but any way i just cant seem to find a light or a little bit of hope to have faith in. sometimes i just dont want to get up in the morning. i just realy think theres no hope so i can just go mess up my life now. God is in my life but i am not on a firm foundation i can be moved to go or do anything cause i am so lost i will do anything for love or hope. so yes thats not good but it seems fine to me. i have 3 christin friends. and if i have any more friends there not christian but they kinda are. so thanks for reading my problems (you probly think i am stupied or u thought this was a boring letter) but this is the "only" place i can realy talk about my problems cause i dont like any one to no i am troubled or hurt in side. i mean i cry cause the pain of sin cuts me alot of what i have done and going to do. (great now i am crying) i hate crying i feel so stupied to cry. i've lied stollen, cheated, and done some wrong things but theres more to come. thanks for listening to this boring letter that i had troulbe righting casue i didnt want to cry but now i am. Maybe this time whrn i cry some1 will come (ya right).

~Helplessly lost and afraid of life!!!

Please can you all pray for me because I am in a mess. My life is all over the place and I really don't know what to do. Everything in my life has just turned upside (family, friends, school, being a true Christian etc.) thank you so much!

FOr me to seize the moments of when Ashley heart is open to any type of conversations.
THank you

Our Paster is leaving our church because a [friend of mine] girl died, and he was pretty close to her. He had a psychological break down, and now him and his family are moving away.......it's had for all of us. please pray for everyone.